Since I was a little kid, I always wanted to tell stories and describe things in a way that shows people the reason behind someone's actions or behavior, and what made me interested in something like that is the fact that I always thought that it is not very clear for people to see my vision or look at something from my point of view and I always felt that I have my own way of seeing and explaining things.
That might sound normal to you. But for myself, that had a significant impact on me when I was younger and it helped to shape and form my feelings and my ways of thinking differently.
Over the years of my teenage, my personality became a little over-sensitive,
I started to hide my emotions and I became "robotic" when I interact with people, I always thought that showing to people how I feel about them or myself is not a good idea because that can be used against me.
At the age of fifteen or sixteen, another problem occurred in my life; I started noticing that I do have a deviated symptom, which is that I can't breathe easy and I don't sound normal when I hear myself talking, and that's on top of being not too happy with how I look!
Being a kid and not talking about what is bothering me was an enormous problem in my childhood because it give a chance to my brain to exaggerate minor issues instead of looking for solutions.
I isolated myself and I started to avoid any personal contact with people unless it is something necessary.
After few years of dealing with all that, communication for me became a struggle, and I always create negative vibes around me when I talk to people because I don't feel very confident about my physical appearance and I can't make eye contact when talking to someone.
In 2010, at the age of twenty-two years old, I figured maybe I need to go live somewhere else where no one knows me so I can start all over,
I moved from Tunisia to Qatar and I lived over there for four years, but nothing changed!
2012 I felt the need to get to know someone and to start a relationship, but all the negative thoughts about my self made it not very easy for me.
I tried dating websites as a solution to avoid direct contact and make things easier for myself,
I met someone older than me from Ohio and we started talking.
Two years later, I moved to the states as a fiance and we participated in a TV program called "90day fiance" and we got married
But things did not go so well!
Based on the age difference and the look, people started to judge and things got more complicated.
After a year and a half, I got a divorce and I moved to Florida and then to Texas.
Austin became my favorite city in America because I liked the people and how laid back everything was over there.
From 2017 until 2019, I worked as an Uber driver and I wasn't super happy with everything until 2020 when I became a truck driver, and that was the best decision I made so far.
It gave me the chance to dive deeper inside my head and reorganization everything in my brain because I had fewer financial responsibilities and as much time as I needed to think and plan for the future.
Taking the time to go over your past and analyze everything that you have done or went through is an excellent way to find yourself and draw a clear path for what's coming up next in your life, and that's where I am standing today.
I feel stronger than ever and ready to start making things better for myself.
Today the 24th of August 2020, as I'm writing this, I announce here on my website that I'm going to start fighting against my weaknesses and go after the life I think I deserve to live.
And to make this more fun and challenging, I am going to use my social media and youtube channel to share the journey with you and make you part of the changes that I'm going to make in my life.
So if you are interested, please stick around and don't forget to follow me on my Instagram and Facebook also subscribe to my YouTube channel.
I promise you I won't make this boring and will give you an excellent experience watching my content and reading my posts because I think your opinion will help me do better and stay motivated.
So now, all I have left here is to thank you for making it this far and reading this lengthy but yet brief summary about my storyline, and I will talk to you soon on my youtube and my social l media "@mohamedjbaliusa".
Peace and love.